"Growing up is never straightforward.
There are moments when everything is fine,
& other moments, when you're a teenager
& you realize that there are certain memories
that you'll never get back.
& certain people that are going to change
& the hardest part is realizing that
theres nothing you can do except watch them,
& realize that everything is going to change."
why must i try stopping time, try stopping how i feel because no matter what, im going to be like this. im going to make this short because no matter how many fillers i use, the meaning will still be the same. sometimes in a problem, the situation caused was started within, not because of someone else. dont blame others but yourself the most. learn to be more open, to be more willing. i think im wiser, not smarter, but wiser. i learn to regard my trust. to keep it close to me and not to hand out as a flier. its something that leaves me vulnerable and i can only do that with those i trust. and once trust is lost, its hard to ever regain it. but there is always hope. for without hope, life would be serious hell. if its me against the world, i guess thats how life is suppose to be. if no one can see my points, at least i know i can stand up for my beliefs even when others see im wrong. because no matter what, i know whats right inside. and acknowledging that i make so many mistakes is the only thing i can do and the best thing i can do. because i know im vulnerable, i know im weak, but at this stage, im trying to grow stronger. so leave me be. what would jesus do. im glad someone reminded me because no matter how many times we turn away from him, disappoint him, hurt him, he will still accept us for the deeds we wronged him. but im not jesus and i will never be. but i will need to change. i have to, i need to , i want to have a relationship with god. i want to go back to church but i wont if its for the wrong reasons. so ill wait, i have to wait for something to motivate me. i feel like the wind. i change so easily. but unlike the wind, im firm on where i stand, and being firm can also translate to being stubborn, and for that, like the wind, i wish i was more open.
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it takes a while for us to learn to stand up for what we truly believe in despite what others may think/say about us. I'm glad to know you've found your ability to believe in yourself :O)
To those who only find a reason to disagree for the sake of it, they aren't worth our time or emotions.
like the wind
bertrand
i like what you wrote
yeah i know. sometimes it seems like it would be so much easier if we had a strong relationship with God. then we would actually want to go to church and pray and read the bible. things wouldn't be so fake and forced.
i like ur posts (:
i like what you wrote too. I think jesus really is there to help us make the right choices. And his love really is unconditional.
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